Thankful

When I think about my life today and how amazing things have turned out for me all I can do is give God all of the Glory. Ten years ago, even five years ago I never would've imagined my life being where it is now. I was a sophomore in high school and thought I had everything figured out with my life. I had planned on going to a well known University to be a physicians assistant, making certain moves that at the time I thought was right even though I knew God wouldn't be proud of, I didn't want to be married until I was 23 and thought I didn't want a child until I was 25. It's funny the things that happen that put road blocks in our way that ruins what we want for our future so that we can have what God wants for our future, though I wouldn't have it any other way now. 

I used to get so upset and frustrated when things wouldn’t go my way and I just could not understand it. I didn't understand why an amazing woman like my Mom had to have cancer, why my Grandma; another amazing woman had to pass away, why I got a scholarship to go the University I wanted to go to but ended up not being able to go. I felt so stuck with everything in my life, nothing was working out the way I had always imagined it. In 2007 I started talking to the guy who would become my best friend and then my Husband. A year later on the one year anniversary of my Mom being diagnosed with cancer my best friend proposed. It turned a very sad day into an extremely happy one. I was a Senior in High School and proudly engaged to the man of my dreams. Everything was going my way again.... Eight months later my Grandma passed away and I couldn't understand why. I kept thinking, "Why, she didn't do anything to deserve this, there's so many people out there living who do so wrong, why Her and not them?" Now I understand that it was her time to go home and be with Jesus and that was the way of making her life better not worse. I didn't end up going to the University I wanted because of my Grandma passing and not wanting to leave her side. Now I know that it was meant to be because if it wasn't for that happening I wouldn't be where I am today; a proud Christian woman, a wife and a mother. 

My Mom who we all thought was in remission found out she still had cancer and it had spread to her bones. Again everything felt like it was going down hill. Looking at everything that has gone on with my Mom in just these last few years makes me realize, God isn't doing this to hurt my Mom or any of her loved ones. She has showed me what its like to be a strong Christian woman, sister, mother and wife. Without her I don't know where I would be today; she's set a wonderful example of how to live a meaningful life. Through everything she has been through she has remained my role model and the person I can trust and talk to about anything. It's hard seeing my Mom go through the things she is now going through, but I know God would never give her or us anything we couldn't handle. He has something amazing in store for all of us! I often think, "Once my Mom is at Home with her Father in Heaven, who will I have to turn to that can give me motherly advice on how to stay a strong Christian, how to get through things in a marriage and how to raise a child?" Though nothing and no one can or will ever replace her I know now that above all the Lord our God will never leave me. He's always there for me to talk to, He'll always listen and help me through anything I may be going through. 

 On this Thanksgiving holiday I'm most thankful for the Lord my Savior and my Mother, without them Both I would feel lost.

**Thank you Lord for sending such an amazing woman into this world to be my Mom and show we what living is really all about and how to serve You in everything I do! -Amen

Thanks to all who have taken time to read this... God Bless and have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

-A Woman With Faith

Feel like You don't have time for God? You're not alone...

Do you think at the beginning of your days; Okay today I'm going to do this or that to serve the Lord? Then realize before you go to bed that you ended up doing nothing at all? I've been there lately, more than ever before.

Every day I think to myself (Okay, at this time I will spend learning, talking and listening to God). It's something that I say I'm going to do, think about doing it all day but at the end of the day I usually didn't do anything to serve the Lord. So many things get in the way that I use as excuses: Being a new Mom and trying to get the hang of things, while still trying to be a great Wife and Daughter, making sure the house stays clean, making sure there's something to eat for everyone, always trying to make sure I make everyone else happy. Though I know God is proud of what I'm doing to help others out, I know He'd be most proud if I first gave Him all of the Glory and talked to Him. Any day without God in it is not a good day.


At night when I realize I haven't done anything for God I think to Myself, instead of being on facebook a million times a day or texting people why didn't I take even those few minutes to spend with God? He has given me so much but instead of praising Him or giving Him any of my time I'm sitting here on the computer or on my phone. I feel like I don't intentionally use motherhood or being a wife and daughter as an excuse but those are the main things that keep me from spending my daily time with God and that's not a good reason at all. If anything I feel like being a wife, mother and daughter should make me want to spend more time and get even closer to God because without God all of those other things can fall to the wayside. A lot of times when I have free time I want to relax, take a nap or get housework done before my daughter gets fussy again. I've come to the point now that I feel stuck because I still want to do all of those things but give more time to God. Instead of making sure everyone else is happy I need to first and foremost make sure God is happy with everything I'm doing. All I can do for now is keep trying, read verses to help me and keep talking to God daily asking for help and praising Him at the same time.


Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18


As the deer pants for the water brooks, so pants my soul for You, O God.
Psalm 42:1


Thank you so much for reading, I hope this has helped you in some way & God Bless as always!
-A Woman with Faith