Do you think at the beginning of your days; Okay today I'm going to do this or that to serve the Lord? Then realize before you go to bed that you ended up doing nothing at all? I've been there lately, more than ever before.
Every day I think to myself (Okay, at this time I will spend learning, talking and listening to God). It's something that I say I'm going to do, think about doing it all day but at the end of the day I usually didn't do anything to serve the Lord. So many things get in the way that I use as excuses: Being a new Mom and trying to get the hang of things, while still trying to be a great Wife and Daughter, making sure the house stays clean, making sure there's something to eat for everyone, always trying to make sure I make everyone else happy. Though I know God is proud of what I'm doing to help others out, I know He'd be most proud if I first gave Him all of the Glory and talked to Him. Any day without God in it is not a good day.
At night when I realize I haven't done anything for God I think to Myself, instead of being on facebook a million times a day or texting people why didn't I take even those few minutes to spend with God? He has given me so much but instead of praising Him or giving Him any of my time I'm sitting here on the computer or on my phone. I feel like I don't intentionally use motherhood or being a wife and daughter as an excuse but those are the main things that keep me from spending my daily time with God and that's not a good reason at all. If anything I feel like being a wife, mother and daughter should make me want to spend more time and get even closer to God because without God all of those other things can fall to the wayside. A lot of times when I have free time I want to relax, take a nap or get housework done before my daughter gets fussy again. I've come to the point now that I feel stuck because I still want to do all of those things but give more time to God. Instead of making sure everyone else is happy I need to first and foremost make sure God is happy with everything I'm doing. All I can do for now is keep trying, read verses to help me and keep talking to God daily asking for help and praising Him at the same time.
Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
As the deer pants for the water brooks, so pants my soul for You, O God.
Psalm 42:1
Thank you so much for reading, I hope this has helped you in some way & God Bless as always!
-A Woman with Faith
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